Life is busy.

I haven’t posted here in a while. I guess it’s been three months or so. Lots of things have happened in the last three months that I didn’t think would. I started a new job–I think I mentioned that three months ago. So far it’s been a good change. It’s not without it’s challenges.

I had a chance to write this morning. Or, I made time to write this morning. I feel like it’s therapeutic in many ways. My boss suggested that I write more. I am glad he did. Will be starting a workout plan, too. His suggestion also. I need to make more time for myself.

I am leading a team of six. So all the challenges of getting to know new people, meeting deadlines and demands is there. I think it’s been a good change. I am hoping to stay put for a couple of years. I am building and architecting a new big data ingestion framework. Hopefully it will be in place by the end of July/August. Most of time is spent leading scrum calls, fixing bugs, designing and developing new things at night. Hopefully that will end soon–the bugs :-). I feel like this role is stretching me. I love my boss. He is a source of encouragement and allows me to lead without a leash. We are aligned, and we think similarly. I am able to be home two days (sometimes more) a week–I think I am finally finding work-life balance. I like the work that I am doing. I’m enjoying my teammates. The nights and weekends are easing

Being in a large company is challenging. Things aren’t as nimble as I would like. I mention frequently that in the start-up world, we don’t have to ask for permission–we just do it and get the job done. Two words have been challenging to me–two words to a person who is driven, like me, would drive them crazy: organizational patience. Something that I am growing in. A colleague of mind reminded me that it’s not about the technology; it’s about the impact and interaction you have while making these solutions. He’s right. I want to be the kind of leader that makes a difference while showing empathy. It’s nice to be in stable company. In the startup world, or companies that just went IPO you are always worried about losing your job. I can just focus on delivering solutions with excellence.

I miss my old teammates. I miss talking with a couple of the managers/directors that I was fond of. Alex, Joel, Doug, Steve and there devops crew were my friends when I needed them. God I miss their skillsets with devops. They made my life so simple. I miss the guys on my team Reebu, Anand, and Ravneet. If I could hire them on my team, I would do it in a heartbeat.

I just turned 38 almost a week ago. My wife spent the day making it fun. I enjoyed being with my kids the whole day. As I get older, I am reminded not only of God’s faithfulness towards me and my family, but that my time is running out. That can be stoic for some people. I guess I am indifferent to all of it. I am hoping things are building to a point in my life where I have a greater passion for Christ. I am slowly learning not to find my identify in my work. It’s hard. I am a better engineer than christian or father or husband. I am passionate about my work. I can’t forget that this job, this life, my desires are all temporary. I just want to be a good daddy and husband. Everything else pales in comparison.

Gotta go. Deploying some new feature to cloud and make the kids lunch. Sorry for the long post.

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